Doing it for me and for a higher purpose

In this post I am going to cut down the bullshit and let you know that I am doing it for my future little girl, I am doing it for myself and for a higher thing for my message of non-violence. That you can be vegan and have a nice body or a confident attitude.

That’s it

it’s never over until it’s over. Never give up!

again and again and again until you find the right way of doing it.



I have never been someone very organized or with a high focus capability for work. ┬áSome might say that I am lazy but I don’t fully agree. But here I am, losing time instead of advancing in an important project that I have to deliver.

But here I am again, eating, drinking, surfing the web….everything other than writing my proposal.

Close to my 30s and still I haven’t changed that much. Or is it that I just need some time to get back in the loop?

Is there any tips and techniques to just focus? is it genetics ­čśŤ is it laziness level 300. Is it because I am stupid?

Is it fear? miedos?

Well I will have to deliver sooner than later and need to just fucking focus and stop bulshitingggggg.!!!!!

Yours with Love

Sophia always Perdida


I am trying to write undercover right now, so my husband doesn’t discover my secret online ”diary”.

In any case I wanted to share with you my vision of far future. I am sure many have had the same idea as well.

I feel and think that in the future the amount of food we eat will decrease considerably, and of course we won’t be eating animal products.

I think we will be so over gender. We will acknowledge our ‘feminine’ and ‘masculine’ sides as energies that each one of us will have inside of us regardless of the sex we have.

Our higher selves will be us in many many years if we make it there, if we don’t destroy our planet first.


Yours truthfully,


Losing weight for ethics and principles

First of all I would like to let you know that I have been vegetarian for one year (actually I started long before then I stopped because of the many arguments that kept running in my head until ultimately I just let them fuck off); and recently Vegan… YEYYYYYY!

I always considered myself as someone with a very low willpower Like whatever if I want something let me just get it, why should I even resist? This was applied to everything, food, sexual relations. However; at the time I also ignored the side of me that was compassionate, sensitive and empathetic. These for me were weaknesses that I had to overcome; weaknesses that I had to ignore because I should be more careless and not give a fuck, be a strong woman, and again we are all going to die anyway? no? YOLO! just do whatever makes you happy and that’s it!

As surprising as that might be, the truth is, that did not really make me happy.

What made me happy was to reconnect with who I really was, to reconnect with my sensitive compassionate part of me.

So anyway, (sorry I got a bit confused as I started this text yesterday and left it to finish it today) ┬áme who never had enough willpower to say no to food and also to casual sex, found myself filled with a great power to say no to meat, to poultry, to eggs, to cow milk, to honey, to leather ect…

I could say no to that because I was standing for a cause, because this made me happy to feel that I am actually helping out just by changing my daily habits, changing my food choices and eventually discovering a whole new perspective of things.

Now let me get back to why I am writing this post today… I could stop eating meat for environmental and ethical reasons: not to harm the environment and to stand against animal cruelty… Why don’t I have the willpower to stop eating that much and lose weight for the simple fact that I love myself and I don’t want to hurt my body…

I’ve been up and down in the scale for many years. I have varicose veins, I did an operation in my uterus and the doctor told me that I should not gain weight or the problem will come again….

I am ready to help everyone, I don’t understand why I cannot help myself and fuel my willpower to do so. I need to love myself and to start losing weight for ethical reasons which is destroying my own self!

The road and process to becoming vegan taught me and is still teaching me many things, most importantly that old habits cannot disappear for one day to another, but one thing that can make them change easier is to believe. To believe in the change you want to make. I believed and was convinced that I should not take part in animal cruelty and this fueled my willpower to a point I don’t even have to use it anymore. I am not tempted. I believed in my change and my cause.

I hope that today is the continuity, the beginning of another continuity of my better self for the love of myself.

Peace, love and go vegan!

Yours truthfully,

Sophia Perdida

It is around 11:15 am…


It is around 11:15 am, I am watching television while feeling very hungry even after eating a bowl of cereal a sandwich of thyme and sesame and a piece of cake….. still hungry.

I could eat another big piece of cake and feel guilty again since I am gaining weight.

The question is:

  • When will I find a job and set my feet in a real career?
  • Is it because I took bad decisions that I am here?
  • Will I ever be successful?
  • Will being successful make me happy?
  • Staying at home will make me happy?
  • Is being anxious a good thing?
  • Will it make things happen?

Watching as well a movie, The incredible Burt Wonderstone….I need to prepare for my class this afternoon. Basic things but sometimes I don’t really know what is the answer. I forgot everything that I have learned.

Am I a failure? Well no conclusions can be taken now.

Yours truthfully.

Sophia Perdida

Behind Eating Meat or not

Hi everyone, meat eater or not….or simply hi to myself.

I have tried many times before to stop eating meat and I always ended up re-collapsing….until a couple months ago, I started with more conviction ┬áand it has been around 10 months meat free!

I feel better and more aligned with my true nature. I kind of feel a balance between my head, my heart and my guts.

I am still however eating dairy products. I don’t drink mild, but I do eat cheese.

I don’t eat chicken but I still eat eggs.

I will try little by little to decrease my consumption.

In any case, one thing I don’t like is when people feel it has to be an extreme or another. You can be completely Vegan and still ride a big 4×4. Maybe because you like something a lot you try to lower your footprint from another place to make your balance at the end acceptable.

The point is to feel a bit responsible. My brother feels no responsibility at all. like ok it is not affecting me, I will continue whatever I want to do. The truth is that it affects him a lot: directly or indirectly we are all connected. Butterfly effect, oneness or whatever you want to call it, rather we like it or not we are all connected. We can be more or less apart from the rest of the world but eventually it will get to us.

A legend that I always liked to hear and say: ”La l├ęgende du Colibri”, ”The legend of the humming-bird”: One day there was a big fire in the forest, all the animals of the neighboring forest were sad and alarmed but none of them did anything; however you could see up in the sky the humming bird with a small bucket of water going forth and forward to try and extinguish the fire. The bear looked at him laughing: my dear friend, you are so naive, you think that you will be able to stop this fire with your small amounts of water. The humming-bird replied: No my friend, but at least I am doing my part.

If we all did our parts, things would be solved more quickly. If we acted instead of saying that nothing can be changed. Things could actually change.

One thing that I am understanding ┬ámore and more with time, since I was pretty much spoiled, is that we don’t only have rights, we have duties as well. The better we do our duties, the more we deserve our rights.

But in the end, there will always be a yin and a yang, good and evil, end and start and eventually: ”Il faut de tout pour faire un monde”.

Yours Truly,

Sophia Perdida